the process
02-16-25
Let me not beat around the bush: I got a new job! An IT support job through a family connection.
Despite the ups and downs, which I'll get into, I'm super grateful. My cinema job was getting real crappy with an awful manager just making the whole place hell. It got too a point where dealing with management was worse than doing the actual work itself. So, to be able to quit and get a full-time job that's somewhat in the tech field, is the holy grail.
The best part of the opportunity is just the stability I have now. I've talked before on here about the stress of managing time: finding time to work, while also searching for a better job, and trying to up my resume. I would constantly burn myself out. Now this gig has it's own challenges but I can at least slow down a bit. I'm making a decent bit more money I've almost exclusively just been saving up, and took a hiatus from the job search.
It's not perfect. It's an 8-5 job but I'm also expected to be on call outside the office hours so that's been taking a lot of time and energy from me. Without going into too much detail, I alone am the entire IT department for this local business. That means a lot on my plate while I'm teaching myself everything as I go. Suffice to say, it's busy.
I'm still trying to figure out how to better use my free time. Lately, I've just been going to work, dinner, and right to sleep during the week and saving all my liesure time for the weekend. There's no way that's viable so I gotta figure a way to not exhaust myself. Still, it's a step forward in the process.
Honestly, a part of me feels like an asshole for being picky but despite this current stage of stability, I'm still not where I want to be. My main goal hasn't just been to get a job; my goal has been to move out of this deep red state and a job was just the way to do it. As good as it's been, a part of me is still feeling a bit of dread. Knowing that I'm pausing the job search for a bit and slowing down, is also accepting I'm going to be stuck here even longer before I have the means to move out.
I don't want to get into the orange Nazi elephant in the room, but that is another thing that has happened in the world since my last blogpost and is something I definitely want to write about another time. All I'll say for now is, yes it has definitely been filling me with dread for the last month, and yes it is making living in this deep red state more and more unbareable. Ever since that guy got into office, people here have been coming out of the woodwork and being as publicly obnoxious as possible in their unbridled support. And, I feel like I'm just grinning my teeth until I care get the means to move far away from this place.
I've found that looking for places to help has alleviated a bit of the hopelessness. I had the pleasure of attending a local anti-deportation protest and am trying to volunteer. But these opportunities are very few and far between. I'm relatively optimistic for the end but it's definitely been rough out here until then. But once again, that's something I'd like to write about in more detail another time.
For now, my life is stable. I'm saving money. I'm finding time for friends. I'm working towards my dream. Things are better.
